My silence is due to just...not having anything exciting happening really. I'm still looking for a job, the market is scarce for someone with nothing but customer service under her belt, and I know that my previous call center job was a factor in my severe depression. I am still not divorced to Kyle, I have no income to afford my car payments, he is still paying the car off. My boyfriend Chris paid off my phone for me, which was a huge blessing, but I can't keep my car insured, or my phone billed paid on $500 every 2 weeks. When rent is taken out of that $500, I am left with roughly $175 to carry me through 2 weeks. My other two boyfriends, Cannon and Jacob, have been blessing me with grocery money, but I've been feeling like such a burden to everyone I love.
I am losing confidence in myself, and I had very little to start with tbh.
However, one of my dearest friends, who is also pagan, gave me a Rune reading last week and it lifted my spirits a bit. In the runes, he saw that I am protected by the loved ones that I have accumulated over the past few years, in particularly, my 3 boyfriends. The runes showed that i am in a very trying time of my life, and that I must be patient and keep fighting. It will be long, it's no where near over, but I will find victory eventually.
It helped me take heart, so I will continue to be patient and fight with diligence and wisdom.
On a happier note, I HAVE SEEN DISNEY'S MOANA AND I LOVE IT SO FUCKING MUCH GUYZ.
Cannon took me to it a few weeks back, and it left such an imprint on me, I can't clearly explain it.
1. It's full of a paganism and shows it in a positive light.
2. Moana is not completely confident in her mission to save her island, but it is her love for her island and her people that pushes her forward. There is even a moment when she gives up completely, and tells the ocean to choose someone else to save her people.
3. She isn't given a love interest, she doesn't need one. She's complete within herself. She does have a family and loved ones, and does what she does for them, but she's not dependent on a lover for her strength.
4. The music is PHENOMENAL. Manuel Lin-Miranda, along with a few others created a very soulful soundtrack.
5. The humor is AWESOME. Many jokes made me laugh like I had during Zootopia!
6. DWAYNE JOHNSON HAS STOLEN MY HEART AS MAUI THE DEMI GOD.
Seriously, I have a new crush and I'm totally hopelessly in love with him.
Dwayne has NO RIGHT to be drop-dead sexy, a genuinely great human, AND BE ABLE TO SING. *ugly sobbing*
Anyways, I HIGHLY recommend seeing Moana to all of my friends!
Love to all always.